I think when I got pregnant with Caroline I had this fantasy that my body would rebound ala Heidi Klum or Angelina Jolie. I’ll never forget the day I was staring at my naked self in the mirror and I realized that my sweet cheeked daughter gave me stretch marks. I think I cried–that coupled with the C-Section scar was just too much for me. That may sound selfish and vain but this is about our honest experiences and I honestly had a meltdown.
I was definitely one of those women who rubbed Jergens firming lotion on her belly multiple times a day (that crap doesn’t work) and I didn’t gain that much weight while pregnant either–21 pounds–so WHY did I have stretch marks? Because of my mom? Can I scream at her now? Ugh!
I was so upset. I’m still upset and not over it.
Once I realized I had stretch marks (and this random fat pocket that I think was caused by my C-Section but that’s a whole other blog) it was all down hill from there…I thought well hell…I’ll never want to show off this stomach anymore so what does it matter if it’s a six pack or a keg…who cares…and so I started eating. At the time, I was pumping and going a million miles a minute with a newborn that I didn’t see any results of my change in eating habits and lack of exercise. It wasn’t until January of this year..I started developing a second chin, my pants were a little tighter, arms were a little jigglier and life just got a little less sexy. I started to get lazy because I was jiggly and I’ve just gone down this crazy spiral. It’s amazing how one pound turns into four and four turn into ten and before you know it, your size whatever shirts don’t fit you anymore.
But this isn’t about how I got here (…we all know how I got here…it’s that extra cookie or queso or cocktail (my weakness)…) this is about what I am doing about it because I am sick and tired of sitting down and having to pull my jeans over my belly roll…you know what I’m talking about ladies…I’m sick of it! I am by no means in the realm of being a contestant on the Biggest Loser but I’ve gained too much weight for me and it’s not healthy anymore and I want to be a role model for my daughter and our future children when it comes to all things..including fitness…so it’s time to make a change!
Starting Monday (October 31), I will be working with Adrien at CrossFit Round Rock on getting back in shape. It’s not about a number or a certain pant size, it’s about changing my lifestyle and making it healthier for me and my family. I can’t wait to share this journey with you all and hopefully inspire some of you all to get healthy, too.
I hear CrossFit is brutal but I’m looking forward to it and can’t wait to fill you in on how it goes on Monday! Eeeek! Stay tuned for some before pictures…no worries…they won’t be in a swimsuit 😉
Workin’ on my Fitness.